i'm escaping reality by blogging.

hoping once again that time would just stop.

but it never does, and i made a huge mistake.

my hand is friggin pain.

please don't make promises you know you can't keep.

the times you know when i fall
i pick myself up to recall
the days you couldn't catch me
and the times i held you tight
please forgive me for whatever i have sinned

bless you,
my friend, my conor, my idaho.

To Natalie, (the friend who may be at lost now)

i know i may not look like it
but i know how you feel
there are times when you couldn't forgive me
but i still love you
pick yourself up if you have fallen
pity is not a sin
you have not commited a mistake
dont grave yourself for it
i'll keep your back up
even if you may not like me for it
i kick you if you don't continue
the life you had before
don't meddle anymore
as sometimes you have to look at picture and all.


i'm such a horrible poet. but i'm in shakespere mood. blame 'my own private idaho for it'. loved the show. the late river phoenix and keanu reeves. although its been a week since i saw that show.

replies:
Claree: i love you too =D
Hate/Irene: yeah thanks man.
DarkSR: fine thanks.
Khym: thank you very much.
Haze: my girl! =x
Kaze: ok (get it?)
Natt: thanks!

so i have finally managed to update my blog after my first entry.

this two days have passed in just a snap rushing for time and just wanting time to stop so that i can:

sleep
finish my project
and sleep. (again)

so i find that sleep to me is very precious and once my body feels that i don't have enough sleep, something will just go wrong. for example: being sick, headache, giddiness and fever. and that was what i suffered yesturday where i had to miss school. of course that isn't so bad, right?

i have no idea why but once i don't have enough sleep, i tend to get very snappy, and i would just, well, snap.

So? sue me

someone please save me from this life
the one i wish to end so desperately and yet hanging there as i'm afraid of dying.
why do i have this difficulty?
maybe its just me. maybe not.

a blog.

it's been awhile. days, weeks, months perhaps? probably even years.

3 reasons why i have created this blog:

1) to prove my class wrong and that i do NOT have perverted thoughts 24/7. (and that i don't watch porn an oath i promise that i fufill)
2)tired of people asking me "why aren't i'm updating my livejournal anymore" (mainly to fufill their desires)
3) a really simple reason. cause everytime i see a person blog i just feel like blogging.

yes, three simple easy reason. i jolly hope that i'll fufill them.

p.s. if you're looking for photos they're not here. just pm me if you want them.